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Hello hello!

One week of work is over! But I realize I got signed up for another week! YAY! And thankfully it doesn’t clash with other commitments for the time being, so phewww!
I went pool with my fellow facils on Friday! We went to eat some pretty yummy food along Bukit Timah road! It was rather reasonably priced and yummy, so very worth it =) No GST or service charge either! :D I’m so auntie HAHAH. I shared Carbonara, Baked Rice and Cheese Fries with the other girl from RV I was working with, and I only had to pay $9.30 in total. DAMN AWESOME! We wanted to drink bubble tea after that, BUT it was closed cos it was a public holiday!!! I WAS HEARTBROKEN =( But after that, we went to play pool :D I was the noobest, having played only once, and I’m sad to say, even after close to two hours there, I can’t really pool decently yet!?!? Who’s up for pool during the hols :D The place they brought me had cheap rates so it’s cool :D

On Saturday, there was training. And surprise surprise, I managed to wake in time HAHAH. I was half expecting myself to sleep in cos I’ve been waking up at 6am for the past week to report to RGPS. Wah there was only 5 people who went for training and Mr Soh was a lil late too :o Before he came, we did some conditioning. Kinda little, but it’s a start since we have never done that. I feel my muscles aching a lil today, so I guess we should continue working on our stamina and speed! Haiz, Yu Jia and I supposed to come up with a running schedule, but I’ve a sinking suspicion no one will wanna turn up for it if we plan for running at East Coast Park or Macritchie LOL!! Okay we need discipline and I need more willpower :( I can’t last past 2km when I’m running alone haiz.

Oh then after training, Yu Jia and I got bubble tea at Clementi Central! She showed me a shop which sold cheaper and yummy bubble tea! I’m so gonna get my fix from there next time :D We had a good nice chat heh :) Been a very long time since I spoke to anyone so forthcomingly and openly so it felt really awesome!

Oh after that I headed home before going off to Bugis with my sister :) We visited the book fair as well, before bumming around at Bugis and Iluma. I bought badges + a shirt yay =) Then after that we went to J8 Macs where I redeemed my free milkshake and we got shakerfries! That was our dinner, hoho so sinful! Then afterwards we got honey milk tea (yes, I got 2 cups in a day oh the calories!) then we met our dad to catch 2012!!! The movie was surprisingly good! Cos I was like, expecting everyone to die and the movie didn’t really get good reviews either? Hahah, but the effects were awesome and I felt like quite sad and touched!? Heh then after that, we had supper at Mos Burger, yummy :)

Now, I’m supposed to get a haircut! I think I’m gonna get another cup of bubble tea! Green tea ice blend at the very nice shop in Yishun :D Watch me turn into a bubble pearl with all the bubble tea I’m drinking! D:

SOCCER CAMP TOMORROW! Hope it is fun fun fun fun fun =)

xx

Haven’t been active for some time.
Pointform of what I’ve been up to this few days cos I’m too lazy to blog in proper sentences lol._.

x Facilitating camp at RGPS
x Dealing with little kiddos of P1s
x 3 guys 18 girls
x Working under the guidance of a teacher who looks exactly like my favourite primary school teacher, so much so that I actually asked if they were sisters or not!
x Working with a fellow facil who looks kinda similar to a particular snr AND he sounds really really like him too, kinda scary? But he’s a nice guy.
x Went longkang fishing for the first time in my life! Didn’t manage to keep the fishies though since I wasn’t supposed to be fishing-just helping the kiddos, cos I woulda killed them in the toiletbowl when I got home anyways-.-
x I feel so loved with those little girls cos they hug and cling onto me everytime
x I’m very biased though, I only hold the hands of girls who are nice & sweet; especially those who are sensible + clean up after themselves!
x I like how they don’t mind that I’m fat & ugly! They just kiss, hug, hold my hands as if I’m some sort of awesome person. Really boosts my self esteem to a certain extent HAHAH.
x Made a few nice friends from RV as well :)
x Gonna visit a vegetable farm tmr! Hope it doesn’t rain :)
x I don’t really like this girl who is very poser and whiny. I wonder if she knows she’s being very disgusting!? Cos I personally cannot stand people who whine with high voices
x On the other hand, I had to make my voice slightly higher when talking to kids if not they’d be scared off with my voice =(
x I think the kiddos are very rich and well off to be able to come to this camp. Scratch the “I think”, it’s true.
x I hope that they will learn how to say “Thankyou” more often at the end of this camp, but I think that’s asking for a lil too much-.-
x I am secretly kinda worried that after mixing too much with the kids, my mental capacity starts dropping to that of a Primary One :o
x I actually quite enjoy working in this environment =) I didn’t expect myself to do so!
x Some of the kids are really smart. They know NaCl = Sodium chloride. I didn’t know that in P1!?!?
x The kids tease me bout boyfriends on a daily basis!? How come they know so much bout r/s in P1!?
x Even more shocking, one of them proudly told me her dad told her that “it’s a good time to know bout the birds & the bees”
x I think I’m actually quite good with kids? LOL
x My heart kinda broke a lil when one of the very cute and sensible kids cried after her fishes died =( I had a hard time telling her bout life & death. But I made her smile afterwards!
x I don’t remember myself being so hyper cute and enthu in P1. I was the quiet shy ugly (yet I’d like to think, MATURE) girl sitting at the back of the class. (HEY but I got first in standard OKAY!? :D)
x The kids’ handwritings are really damn ugly._. Was mine that bad in P1!?
x I hope I actually make a difference to their lives, even though it’s a bit short for that and I think they are a bit young to appreciate it?
x I still don’t really like working with kids but then again I think they are easier to deal with than adults. Makes you appreciate how simple life and r/s is when you are young.
x I actually enjoy working here (this has to count twice) EVEN THOUGH I THINK I’M A LIL UNDERPAID. But I guess the 3 meals make up for it. Hope I don’t grow fat eating their food-.-

x Nonetheless, I look fwd to pool on Friday (if my parents have nothing planned since it’s a public hols anyways) training on Sat! And maybe another job I can do in Dec? I will see :) OH and soccer camp next Monday :) Hope it goes well!

(Somehow I find this very amusing)

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Yo! I’m back from M’sia heh :) Went from 3D2N so I happily missed CAP collection and all, but then again I don’t really think I missed much? Since CAP is already out on eSpace a day earlier this sem and even if it wasn’t, it wouldn’t be much to look forward to lmao.

M’sia was fun cos there was loads of yummy food, shopping & sleeping involved :D I haven’t gotten more than 10 hours of sleep in a loooong time. Which is kinda weird cos we shouldn’t be sleeping when we are overseas, yes? Oh and my family wanted to catch a movie there! Cos it’s like seriously cheapzx but the thing is, it was really crowded too =/ So we gave it a miss haha. I find it hard to swallow that M’sia is already showing some shows that will only be out in Singapore next month!?!?!? Why!? Like “The Box” which stars James Marsden and Cameron Diaz. James Marsden is coincidentally one of my favourite actors just cos he looks very hot and I like the shows he acted in HAH :D Such a superficial reason, but it works.

Gonna be real busy this hols, or at least till the following week when I’m gonna have my soccer camp YAY YAY YAY(: Then I’d like to make some “me” time for myself. Sure hope this holidays doesn’t fly by, cos that’d mean I haven’t made full use of it.

Looking forward to tomorrow though I’m like crazily nervous bout it heh! Hope I wouldn’t kill anyone :D

Love,

L

Speaking of shadows, still remember this Stella!? We were trying to make shadow animals in the hall a few days ago, after history scriptchecking and all I could remember how to do was, uh A BIRD. Hahah :D

So anyways, I shall try to update my blog more regularly and hopefully with more interesting content :(

Today’s talks were kinda alright, but I guess the highlight of it were the tremors we felt in the audi!!! Did anyone feel it too!? It can’t be just our imaginations cos they happened more than 5 times! And there were others giving each other puzzled looks as well D:

Jibee and I went to KFC! For nice lunch and a great chat hoho :D And I drank honey milk tea with mini pearls yay :D So after that, we went back to school and played a lil of table tennis yay! It’s been shuper duper long since I played table tennis, so I guess we were a lil rusty to say the least. BUTBUT, GOODLUCK TO JIBEE FOR HER DOUBLES MATCH TMR =)

We then proceeded to Suntec City for the Ho Rih Hwa Leadership Lecture by The Honourable Donald Tsang. I felt a lil overwhelmed there cos I felt so puny and insignificant cos mostly everyone there were like business associates!? Hahah there were plenty of JCs students there as well but I suppose we haven’t really learnt macroeconomics so for me, I didn’t really get everything he said. But there were funny moments during the speech I guess :D And this is like, the first speech I went to where there are people actually fighting to question the speaker and they actually had to squeeze in questions towards the last few minutes cos there were just too many questions! Gosh. What a difference from the other talks I’ve been to =/

Haiz, after the talk, I wanted to walk around town, like y’know Suntec City and Raffles City, but decided that my bag was waaay too heavy so I took the train back with Reshi since he lived in Bishan. Surprisingly he was really nice to talk to!? Like, there were no awkward moments and conversation flowed pretty smoothly :D

Heh, still composing the dedications and wondering if I’d ever get to post it up :D

On a side note, I should learn how to make decisions quicker!

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xx

Today’s such a sad day, for reasons I’m sure everyone would know. The only paper that was decent is uh, history!? Alright man, I should go set up the humans school in Singapore and be the pioneer batch or something. Butbut then again, my other humans are sucky too. Okay, I think I’m not cut out for school luh, I should just drop out of school and work at a bubble tea stall or something, given my exceptionally wonderful grades :)

We had PT today for Soccer! I wanted to go for ice cream with Stella & Jerdine, cos we (mostly Jerdine & I actually!?) were feeling awesomely depressed and I thought some sugar fix would do us wonders. But I had PT for Soccer in the end and we played some Captain’s ball!! I thought it was rather fun yay! Mary is very good at it hahah, so we got kinda owned!? But our side did much better after Yu Jia came back from her council meeting :D I was the defender luh! For the first time in my life! But it was quite fun I suppose! I treated it like it was volleyball then just smacked the ball down. But I was kinda sucky, so we lost in the end HAHAH sho sadzx =(

AARON’S GONNA GET A WII! Okay the very thickskinned me has made sure he promised that I’d be able to go his house to play this hols or even earlier YAY! And I happily blogged bout it here publicly so I can hold it against him if he forgets bout it HAHAH :D

Anyways I’m doing a draft for dedications now, hmm. I wonder if I should post it :D

Oh and yesh, I’m looking forward to Soccer Camp WHOO! I sure hope I don’t have anything on then, *fingers crossed*

K bai everybody, I await the horrors tomorrow.

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I know, the way I blog, the way I talk, the way I act, it seems like to you, I’m actually not bothered bout my grades, that actually I’m making my grades seem worse than they actually are. But neh, don’t get me wrong. I know training can make me happier and release at least some pent up energy I need to, but it can only make you forget so much there and then. I don’t think you understand actually, the feeling of falling and tumbling downhill, and not knowing where you are going or how you can stop. So if you don’t mind, I’d appreciate if you just shut up, cos you’re not helping. I hate that look in their eyes, so I will make it better. I have to.

So I was thinking bout a passing comment someone made the other day. If you could use something as an analogy for your heart, what would it be? I guess for some, it might just be “stone” or “ice”, y’know like “heart of stone” kind of thing. Then I was thinking how bout myself? I guess while some people may see me as a cold hearted bitch or a very aloof person, I think I’m actually very loving and warm leh :D So “ice” and “stone” is out.

Then I thought and realized that the object I could use to describe myself would be an ONION. Do you think so? Like layers and layers of onion skin to peel off before you can go deep deep deep down into the “core” of it. And of course, you’d have to stand the stinging sensation in your eyes, which is quite apt since you gotta stand me before you get to know me deeper and better. Actually the tears part is quite true too- if you ever seen me cry or have been there when I was sad, naturally I’d think that you’re someone who is rather close to me =)

It’s kinda surreal when I think bout how my heart is full of layers. But I think, for now, there isn’t one who goes right deep inside, which is expected for most people, but I guess I’m not one who tells even closer friends much stuff so yeah. But I hope that one day before I die, I’d be able to let them all out. Though of course the problem with this would be that we will never know when we will go.

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So enough of that hearty crap. Holidays are almost here! And if you haven’t noticed, I shall refrain from talking bout CAP or results or whatever, cos mine sucks and I don’t have mood to talk bout it.

Anyhow, this hols I wanna learn something/do something different! And I think I found it :D I went to the library yesterday and chanced upon many pretty books on how to make your own jewelery! :D As we all know, Chua has a blogshop for this :D I don’t think I’ve half the creativity or talent or patience to do something so nice, but I’d wanna make at least ONE for myself this holidays :)))) Chua said she could loan me some tools first, so I don’t have to get them cos I think they cost quite a lot? At least if this current obsession fades away, I wouldn’t have tools as white elephants at home! OH MAN I’M QUITE EXCITED BOUT IT :D I shall consolidate whatever

I’m also currently obsessed over vintage bottle caps and vintage badges and vintage prints! Okay it’s not a very current obsession, it has been around for rather long. But I can’t seem to find them (cheap) in Singapore! And by the time they ship in from overseas, it is no longer cheap cos I’d have to pay for postage fees too =( Maybe I should go down to some ulu places in Singapore one day to find :D

:)

Hi everybody, exams are almost over! But I don’t really feel a great sense of satisfaction or joy for that matter, cos up till now, I haven’t really grasp the fact that it’s exams HAHAH. Like to me, it’s just some screwed up nightmare. This shows the extent of preparation and revision I have done for this sem’s exams, whch is pretty much zero, nada, zilch (okay you get the drift).

Okay so anywhoo, today’s papers really redefined the term “screwed up” seriously. Looks like I’m not cut out for both Physics and Maths Honours!!! Which is what I will be dropping, in any case, BUT I still feel like a loser leh. I will spend this hols with my maths honours file :( And do those revision papers that I shoulda done before the exams (and not after) but it’s never too late!!! I hope. Okay, another lesson learnt would be never to leave revision to the last minute. This sem will be a very painful lesson for me >:(

Oh a brighter note, Jibee, Mariel, Nelson and I went for lunch @ Macs today!!! :D Which was a good thing cos I think I woulda emo-ed and died without it HAHAH. So we chose Macs cos we wanted to play the Macnopoly thingy (yes, I made this term up, credit me!!) and Nelson & I were lucky enough to get some instant prizes!!! Hahah, but of course we didn’t redeem them instantly.

I can’t wait for Friday! Our class 1st ever class outing! I shall happily overlook the fact that attendance is still kinda low and there are people who still have not replied to Nelson’s sms, hmphh. But I think it will be rather fun with or without the entire class :)

Okay, I shall go back to Calculus and History._.
Y’know I entirely forgot how to do integration kthxbai cos I haven’t touched Calculus ever since the last maths lesson we had D:

Goodluck to everybodyzx, just 3 papers + HMT O’s left for me!! I can smell freedom! And of course, that horrible stench of CAP transcript lingering as well._.
Bai :)

This is kinda dumb, but somehow I feel that I talk more to the girls in my class of late! Yesh, which is not very impressive since it’s the last few weeks of being together in 405. Which is kinda sad, because just as I felt some class spirit and bonding-ness within us, it’s time for us to say goodbye. I felt that the Captain’s Ball session we had for PE yesterday was pretty amazing, because it was the first time that everyone participated and touched the ball! Y’know normally it’s just the guys and maybe a couple of girls who played wholeheartedly, but yesterday, I saw everyone trying and playing, and best of all, having a laugh with everyone (not just, at a particular someone)!! Nevermind that, I will make the best outta the last few weeks we have with each other. I was thinking maybe it is precisely cos it’s just the last few weeks, everyone’s just being nice to each other and wanting to end the two years we spent together as a class on a high note.

Ohwells. In any case, one last week to the starting of exams! Actually, I think it will pass by really damn fast hahah. I just hope I can catch up. This is bad, cos I haven’t done revision yet. Then I’d hafta celebrate my dad’s birthday tmr, so that’s kinda one day burnt already.

Goodbye! I’m gonna hafta make the best outta today then :) Goodluckie to everybody! :)

xx

Title above is a line from Letter to Me by Brad Paisley :) Try taking a listen to it! It’s quite a meaningful song which Ryan introduced me to, after saying I sound too emo! Oh no. Anyways, try listening to his Whiskey Lullaby too, I think it’s a very awesome song :D I’m too lazy to embed the YouTube vid here, so just click on it if you wish to. Very nice, very country, perfect for the mellow mood~ I sound like I’m advertising for Brad Paisley right!? Okay I shall stop. But I’m suddenly in a mood for Country music whoo~

So anyways, as we all know exams are around the corner, and to be honest, I feel like a sense of anxiety laced with nonchalance. If there’s such a feeling that exists. It’s like, I’d like to think that it’s not too late to catch up 1 year’s worth of Physics, within less than two weeks mind you, but then again I’ve all intentions to give up on it since this will be the last Physics module in my life! THAT IS, ONLY IF I DON’T FAIL THIS MODULE. Given my recent quizzes/tests results and the fact that I’ve not handed in my overdue (of bout 2938024832493258423037249 weeks) assignmentSSS (bolded for emphasis), I think it’s quite possible y’know. Shit. I have never passed a Physics exam before! So I will likely fail this one too, but shit I’m worried my CA is not high enough to allow me to get a pass for this module. I swear I will die if I’ve to do a VIVA for this.

Alright, enough of washing my dirty linens in the public :(

It’s over for this sem. I just want it to get by fast and bear the consequences, then move on with life and onto the next sem where I will work harder. The only thing is that, whatever mistakes I’ve made so far in the past two years have accumulated and amassed into this lump of obstacles that will haunt me for the years to come. I’ve already seen the effect of how I think I will not be able to honours the subjects I’d want to, just cos of this very screwy results in Year 3. I’m seeing how certain subjects might not allow me to do the course I wanna take in university.

What a sad post. I’m not emo! I’m just merely reflecting and working towards what I ought to be doing.

Of late, I’ve been reading the newspapers and somehow situations in other countries like, the bloody drug fight in Rio (which I read in the papers today) made me wonder bout life. Like how we are lamenting bout screwy results, bout hot weather, bout what clothes to buy, bout what bubble tea flavour to get, as opposed to the others out there in the world where they have to fight for their life and survival every damn day. It really makes you wonder. Then I find that, I’m really very fortunate indeed.

Okay, this is a weirded out post. If this were an essay, it’d get zero for writing outta point :)

Let’s just say my train of thoughts crashed into something big and black, i.e. my pile of hwk + revision to be done.

xx,

Bai!

I haven’t been updating this space lately cos I’ve been on another web portal altogether (yes, it’s very expected given how I have been changing the number of blogs since Day One) and I’m waaay more active there. For those who are remotely interested in knowing, you can always ask :)

In any case, my blog hits actually hit 3k some time yesterday! I’m indeed very surprised there are still people who come over to check whether I’m still alive and blogging, so thank you very much though sorry and too bad that you almost always will feel cheated since I don’t update a lot lately!

Anyways, we had floorball for PE today! I thought it was quite fun luh, though I took very long to decide if I should use my left or right hand to hit and which to use as the supporting hand on top (for those who don’t know why, I’ve always had this problem with sports because while I’m a left hander, some sports I do use right hand to play) Maybe it’s something to do with which parts of the brain I should be using, which surprises me so cos I always thought I didn’t have much of a brain.

I’m very sad cos my soles of my shoes came apart and now I’m soleless! This calls for new sports shoes to be bought. Shall look out for those warehouse sales :) I can’t wait to work during the upcoming Dec hols :)

Anyways Nelly introduced me to some online webbie for some online shopping! And I’m very glad to say I’ve tried online shopping (and not just online BROWSING) for the first time! I got 3 shirts for 18$ and I hope it will come soon! And may they all look nice on me if not it will be a waste of 18$!? :(

OHOH I felt shuper sad cos we didn’t have a proper training today even when the sun was pretty good to get a suntan. We ended up playing agnst some Yr3 guys, which made me feel shuper duperly weird cos I’m like the oldest yet noobest there!? I think Joel was quite nice cos at least he still kept bothering to pass me the ball though, time after time, I still lost the ball thanks to my lack of skills.

Hahah one of my soccer juniors has caught 500 Days of Summer twice and she’s going again tmr!? OMG I WANNA GO CATCH THAT SHOW. Does anyone wanna go watch too!?

500 Days of Summer!!! :)

The show got real good reviews too! :)

Hahah I can’t wait for exams to fly by! I have been owing loads of assignments lately haha with loads of backlog… Sometimes I wonder if I can get my act back together for exams or not.

Bai everybody, xx.

Sometimes, when there’s so much happy nice funny stuff I wanna spill, I will turn to you, out of habit maybe, or just the reason that I wanna share my joy or whatever I know with you.

But just as it is already on the tip of my tongue, I swallow them back in. Because to me, you just disappoint me so much that I don’t wanna talk to you anymore. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to see you or say hi to you along the walkway. Because once I do, I have to fake a smile to mask the fact that I’m so very upset with you and somehow everything loses its meaning and I feel like a bloody hypocrite.

Of course, I know that the more I do this, the worse we become. Because that’s one less person caring and bothering to do something bout it. But sometimes I ask myself, is this friendship we have already past saving. Or is it just me thinking too much once again, and that in actual fact, everything is alright and there is nothing wrong between us.

Tell me, because I’m very worried for next year.

Okay, of course it’s a very apt title, no!? :) I heard it on the radio this morning just as I was reminding myself that I needa blog today with this title HAHAH.

So anyways, if I didn’t remember wrongly, I did do a blog post with this title last year too!? Though gosh, time flies! :( Let’s hope that I will be able to post again with this title next year :D :D And better still, on this blog! Given how I simply love changing urls/portals/etc etc.

Anyways, hello October! We ushered in this lovely (please note the sarcasm within) month with wonderful maths test, lovely chem quiz and awesome physics quiz today! I don’t like the month of October for reasons I shall not disclose now and here! But of course, the impending EOYs are a very huge reason as well HAHAH.

My sister was very nice to gimme her teacher’s Children Day’s gift to her (I’m very sad cos apart from Ms Kong, no other teacher seemed to care/know/notice that it’s Children’s Day today!!!). Anyways her gift was this squashy soccer stress ball which is small and cutezxzx. Stilll, I’m currently on the search for this nice soccer ball keychain which I can hang on my baggggggg. I can find tennis ball & badminton shuttlecock ones!! :(

Anyways, I’m very glad it’s the weekends soon. It seems like every day I’m only looking forward to the weekends hahah.

Boy, wouldn't it be salty ;)

xx

Cos I’m getting sick of this, of that, of everything. Somedays I scare myself so much by wanting to go the easy way out. I don’t know if I have the strength, or lack thereof to go all way out, but I hope I never ever hafta ask myself that or cross that line, cos once I do, there’s no coming back.

Hahah I hvnt updated this space in awhile, though amazingly there’s still people coming in here to check for updates (although it has been decreasing steadily :D), so I’ve decided to update this just to show I’m alive :)

Anyways this week had been a hectic one! Hahah, like wow, Friday was bad with Maths Honours test, Bio quiz and Tingxie. Honestly Maths hnrs test was baaad. Hahah I wonder if I should opt out of the system before they kick me out D: (Which is highly likely since I needa obtain an A to remain in it, which is highly unlikely for that matter)

For the past two weeks or so, the Year Fours students were asked to make decisions on hostel mates, specialization programmes etc etc. And argh, it’s so irritating cos I hate making decisions :( It’s as if indecisiveness is my middle name :( I’m currently wondering if I should major in History or Physics. I like History bout 139212839024830534 times more than Physics, but Physics is like 23943840392483204938 more important than History, though it’s not like I’m cut out for Engineering in university, so yeah. Well, I have till Friday to decide!

Oh and I’m very sad, my CCA has ended this week, though I’m hoping on Monday after the photoshoot we will have training after that :D Hahah, like I have said a thousand times before, changing my CCA this year is definitely one of the best decisions (though of course not without many nights of indecisiveness HAHAH) :D :D I’m still one of the lousiest there though._. And my stamina is getting atrocious! This calls for more training, but it’s hard cos it’s not as if you run non stop in a game, you’ll have to sprint hard, then jog to empty space, then sprint hard, then jog, then sprint then jog, and you get the drift. I shall go check out on any training programmes that work on this. But it sucks if I have to train alone y’know!? Like, it’s so lame to see one lone figure on the field running back and forth :( Yu Jia!!! You must join me okies!? Especially after your injury gets better :)

On a same note, I’m glad that I no longer feel so lonesome during CCA anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I do look forward to training and everything, but for the initial, uh say, 6 months, I felt damn lonesome and I remember being all so sad bout it. But now, for the first time I have some junior friends (Yu Jia & Sharmaine :D) and the seniors like Asmidah, Viona, Eliza, Rebecca and Chin Wee are pretty much approachable too :) Wish more Year 4s will join though (*hints hints* :D)

Anyways, my parents are going to JB to get yummy mooncakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I’m very happy :D I prefer the traditional lotus (or better still, white lotus) or green tea ones to the snowskin ones! :o Though I also like snowskin ones, though they cannot be too sweet!!!

Kays bai, I shall do my work :) I have wasted close to 2 hours surfing and listening to music etc!

Oh and Gym Rat Wannabes will be heading for the gym on Monday yay :) I hope I can drag my butt down to the gym this weekend too :D

Wondering what’s that sound in my title!?

Welllllllllllll, that’s Nelly & I being Gym Rats Wannabe :D Haha so anyways we went to the gym near Clementi Swimming Pool today, called ClubFit :D Omg for the first time ever, I didn’t feel conscious when I went into a gym, cos for the first time in many years, I finally have a companion :D Hahah, which is a really good thing in my opinion, cos at least if you’re noob in using the machines, you and your partner can have a good laugh over it hahah.

We ran a lil on the treadmill first, though I’m very determined to up my distance by a lil everytime I run :D Cos currently it’s really shitty and low hahah. We did some weights after that! :D I think for some time, I was the only female there, and being in a room brimming with testosterone is indeed daunting, no!? Hahah, but it’s okay, I like working out, so it was quite fun with Nelly :D

I realize my arms are really weak!? I can hardly do bench presses :( I hope by going every week, I will eventually improve rawr :D And my legs too, hahah. And omg my stomach and abs area, I think they are grossly fat! D: Hopefully I can become more toned after this :D Okay so anyways, there was this group of idiot guys who laughed and made fun of our noobishness :( That’s very mean okay!

So anyways, I decided I will take up a new sport/activity next year since I will be in hostel anyways! Like tennis, aikido, taekwondo maybe?

Anddd I felt CCA was kinda awesome today :D I think street soccer quite fun leh, maybe cos I don’t have the stamina for whole field yet whoops.

Okay so anyhow, I’m gonna go to bed now, I’m very sleepy :D I’m very happie calculus and maths honours quiz got postponed! :D I hope my muscles ache tmr! Cos that will be a sign of a proper workout today!! So masochistic huh!

I think this post is so random and anyhowly typed out. Too bad!

Bai :)

Billboard Wake Up Call!?

This is a nice advice, y’know. Harsh, hardhitting and yet so true. But seriously I think you will bash somebody up if this is said when you’re just not in the mood yeah!? Or especially when you’re not ready to have a reality check. Cos I think I will.

On a very very very side note, SCHOOL’S REOPENING SOON, *dies*. One last day to chiong hwk oh noes.

Time Traveler's Wife :)

So I caught Time Traveler’s Wife with GL ytd :) Wow, I must say I am pleasantly surprised by how much the show touched me and set me thinking even after a day of watching (i.e. up to now) :D Hahah I actually went in without expectations cos I thought it would be difficult to portray the time traveling and different scenes, times, places, humans etc etc. And of course the fact that it got a really shitty rating on Straits Times didn’t help! Though Maxx said it was really good and he’d give 5/5, so I kinda trusted him cos I thought his taste of movies is pretty similar to mine :D

Anyways, I thought the show was really quite brilliant, and I really wanna go get/borrow the book from the library just so I can read it :D We rushed to the library after the show ended to take a look at the ending on the book, and hooboy, I felt that they shoulda included it in! Hahah. Either way, I was already moved to tears! I felt that Claire (the lead actress) is very sad cos Henry (the lead actor) keeps disappearing and somehow, if ever you complain that your bf/gf is not giving you enough time, Claire has it much much much much much much much much worse =/

Okay, so anyways hols are ending alrdy! NOOOO D: I’m not ready to go back to school, much less ready to face my pile of hwk which was left untouched throughout.

:(

Or if you wanna approach it from another pov- burning bridges instead of crossing them.

Hi, today I come to the realization that people can reach me too easily. Like they know that I’m mostly always with my phone, mostly going to reply their smses the moment I receive it, like how I’m always available even though my MSN mode is always on “busy”. And I realize people come to me when they are lonely cos they know I will still care and listen to them, and they leave me when they are up and going. At first I thought it’s just a remote case, like just once or twice with the same specific people. But then I start to realize that it’s a trend, am I only significant when there’s no one left? I also realize that more often than not, I’m the one who is always coordinating, initializing stuff, and boy, do I feel so silly and foolish now. I want to know who are the people who actually do care bout me, not for the fact that they know I will be there for them, but those who appreciate me for who I am, quirks, temperament and all.

So this is going to change. In ways I don’t know how to put in words. I’m not saying I wouldn’t be the friend I have been all these while, but I just know something has to change. And if building walls and burning bridges mean having to be lonely, then so be it.

What a provocative title! :D For your info, it was commented by Nelly on this young couple we saw in Swensen’s today, who was busy frolicking and drawing a lot of attention towards them! Hahah, damn funny, there was this table with a young girl and her mother who were there too, and the mum was like kinda bitching bout that couple very obviously!

So anyways, today Nelly, Jibee and I went for the 1-for-1 buffet! :D We were kinda despo for one more person to join us just so we don’t have to pay more, but nevermind, we ended up going there anyways :D I think Funan and Zikeng are very nice people to still entertain us, but nvm I don’t think they read this blog but still. Anyways! There was hardly any queue and honestly I think the buffet didn’t really live up to my (and actually, our) expectations awww! Or maybe just cos we weren’t the kind to feast on ice cream hoho.

Here are some pictures! The resolution is like bad, cos we only use camera phones, next time we shld bring cams arnd to camwhore hor :D

Here we're at Swensen's! (Note the clean tables before we start :D)

Exotic ice cream flavours :D

Ahem, my wonderful "Soup of the Day" :D

Jibee, Nelly & I! :D Pardon the unglamness of our camwhoring; we will master it eventually! I think we need more practice hohoho.

BUT I think the atmosphere and place was really nice, and we just plonked our butts there talking for like, 3 hours ++ straight bout life, career, love, friends, foes and almost everything under the sun :D And we went on like that, till uh, I had to go to the restroom and we decided to walk around Ion Orchard.

And omg, I think the highlight of the day was seeing Ms Cheng!!! Omg. We were just commenting on how we might actually bump into her before leaving school in the morning earlier (cos we were there for Mr Wujiong’s lessons) and boy, did we really bump into her! Actually, Nelly was the one who spotted her and omg, damn classic can! Afterwards we tried following her down the escalator and she pointed one threatening finger at us and said half in jest “You guys better not stalk me!” Oh and I think she was dressed really nicely and looked really classy, and we on the other hand were dressing soooo slobbily! D:

Bwahaha. We bumped into Matthias and Yeeching too on our way to Takashimaya. Actually we were walking at snail’s pace and walking pretty aimlessly, so it was by chance that we went to Taka eventually. And omg, I spent ALOT OF MONEY IN TAKA AHHH. But I got a nice bag (to use for school maybe or I should just keep it till I use it for hostel next year) and a nice dri-fit shirt for soccer yay :D Omg I think retail therapy really works for me :( Just too bad my wallet is getting thinner and thinner.

Oh I better make sure my new shirt gets dry for Thursday! :D I hope Nelly & Jibee (and maybe Jerdine too!) can come to my house to chill and hang out :D We were thinking of going to the gym, play ball (soccer or bball if we can find one) and watch a horror show hohoho :D

Bai!

I don’t think I ever said this but, in my opinion, one of the worst and most hurtful ways to “comfort” someone is to say “Don’t think too much” or “Stop being oversensitive” to the person that’s hurting. I know I’ve had my fair share of this, and I’m sorry to say that it doesn’t make me feel any better, but I know that the person is either at a loss of what to say to comfort me or just wanna rub in the fact that I should be less sensitive (I hope it’s the former). So I will just ignore that person and shut him or her out. But really, if you can’t think of anything better to say, I’m sure I (or the person who’s hurting) will appreciate it more if you just shut up and be there for him or her. Cos, when you’re feeling all so irrational, sometimes, there’s just no need for words.